I lost My Angel

I lost him! He is gone, how could I have let this happen? I just let him go. I forced myself to let him go, and I don't even know why I did it. I just blew up, maybe it was the pain that i had endured for so long, and it finnaly got to me. Ok, I admit, nine months is not that long. I don't know what made me do it, but I just got so mad at him, and couldn't tell him why. I didn't even know, I still don't. He's just, gone. I don't have the normal mental connection, I don't have feelings towards him, nothing is there. I think I can finaly fully move on. Move on and not have to worry that he is going to stop me from falling for this other guy that he would tear apart if he got the chance. It's like some darknes has lifted. I'm not sad anymore about being away fom him. I'm not in love any more, I'm, empty.